College Graduation...2 Months Later


It's honestly crazy to think my college chapter ended 2 months ago. The ceremony itself felt so...anticlimactic. I entered the stadium, listened to the speeches, walked across stage, and said my final goodbye. In just one day, my entire 3.5 year journey came to an abrupt stop. The whole day felt so ordinary, like no special occasion going on. 

My eyes started filling up with tears when we started driving away from my college town. Right then and there, it hit me. Right after I say goodbye to some of my best friends and packed up everything from my apartment was when I realized things were starting to change. My college friendships were all going to start taking a new direction - no more sitting at the library looking at memes, taking naps together, or eating ramen out of the pan. It was time to enter a more "adult" life. 

For the first time in my life, I had no to do list. I went from juggling assignments and job interviews to having absolutely nothing to do. Most of my days when I first got back were spent watching Netflix and eating my mom's food in bed. I had finally entered adult life, yet I felt more childish than ever. A few weeks after being the laziest I've ever been, I ended up getting a part time job to keep a few of my mornings busy and a gym membership to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I started hanging out with people who I usually wouldn't see often and I also planned some trips to take. I knew my Netflix binge phase wouldn't last - I simply cannot just do "nothing". 

As much as I miss the freedom of being a college student, I am very satisfied with that part of my life coming to an end. I was ready to enter the adult world, where nothing is planned for by an academic advisor. I am ready to figure out life completely on my own and encounter new challenges. I am ready to find the next thing that excites me and keeps me going everyday. Post graduation life is scary since I am all on my own, but I know I can handle it. 

Always,
Ainy

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